musings-2012

been a long time since I posted last;
a lot has happened including losing another parent.my father passed away on 22 aug 2011.it was despearately sad.watched him go away in front of my eyes.the doctors had given up by 2230 hrs and informed me.my son and I watched him on a ventilator;the monitor fluctuating ;my son's presence was hugely comforting-he held my hand as i wept silently,tightly,murmuring you have to let him go,let him go.we stood silently.kept thinking of so many things flashing across my mind.informed my brothers who were at home to come over.my eldest brother's came with the only weapon he had-the holy book.he kept reading from the scriptures slowly and and in my father's ear.my other brother sat in front of the monitor looking at it closely.I was disoriented and feeling very very helpless.we kept vigil.and watched life ebb away.he passed away at 0445 hrs .we paid the hospital bill-a malayali nurse helpfully told pl pay bill sir only then will we give death certificate and "body" .we did that.the"body" was prepared,as was the death certificate.we kept it in the morgue and finalised the burial formalities.he was buried after the afternoon prayers in a shaded graveyard.
it has been some time now .i miss him.his presence.he was 93 and you could say he led a full life and had to go.but you still miss him.
i pray for him,his soul and his peace.